Sunday, October 30, 2005
.rojak
I watched TV yesternite. Full Circle: Leroy.
Really sad. sure, homosexualism is forbidden in Islam; the death punishment and the promise of hell. But how did he even become lyddat. His reason is rather reasonable. He was kicked out of his house by his father due to his peculiar behaviour. A good dad won't do that. A responsible muslim father would not do that. But he did. So the story ended nicely with the reunion between a son and his mother. Honestly, I did find some parts humorous. However, it is quite a pity that a young boy had to fend for himself into what he is now. Be it right or wrong. He was lucky to have a life now, at the least. Then what happen to the others...?
Well, I'll have to help myself to help others. We can't correct someone if we're wrong ourselves. We might not know it ourselves. I wouldn't know. So, I was wrong to laugh at the plight of others.
my indian neighbours are dishin' up sumthin for deepavali. I can swear the aroma of curry is in da house. Hehe. I mean, after a while, it's not so bad. Smells delicious actually.
world without zionism. what's that...?
- today's halloween too...cool.
'quill took his life @ 5:07 pm
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Saturday, October 29, 2005
.the night of power
went to Al-Falah mosque yesternite. They had this programme for muslim youth. Boring? Well, not actually except for a few points which are rather disturbin'. Then they had this screening of a movie, Qaisy Wa Layla. Some malaysian production set in Afghanistan. Abt this Malaysian gal [layla] falling in love wit this Afghan guy [qaisy]. Typical enough...? Not quite. It's a love story based on Islamic principles. Now, that's interesting. Does such exist...?
Well, it does. However it is done in the most beautiful way. The forbidden love, as I like to view it. That is when no sinful acts are done, no cause for hate emerging. Surreal enough, yet possible. Though most people may disagree. Impossible, they would say. One can be so disappointed when one's lover says so. It is sad.
Dear Unbelievers, a relationship based on the knowledge that the other feels for you, and vice versa is enough. That I've learnt from one of you. A valuable lesson, in deed.
Dear Muslims, we are further challenged in Singapore. However, we can live as we are now WITH few changes. Can we afford this reform...? We cannot continue as we really are. We make mistakes, dear brothers and sisters. I make mistakes too, you know.
Sure you would ask...I would ask... - then how do we then marry...? How do we then really find the One...?
Our parents, our teachers, our elders would tell us to worry later. We have yet to really understand 'love'. We still have our exams, they say. I still do. =]
I do agree. We have yet to really understand 'love'.
But we ask again...
- then without going out, without meeting, without dating...how do we find our partner...?
And we have been answered - for He promises us; that to each ourself, there is the other. Like a pair of doves, we have the one that we deserve.
Now, look at yourself.
What do you deserve...?
- smelling the delicious aroma of Kak Diana's special home made Chocolate Chip cookies *yumyum* ^_^
'quill took his life @ 5:45 pm
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Thursday, October 27, 2005
.ramadhan
the holy month of ramadan el-mubarak is almost over...*sobs* this month, I vowed to cleanse myself. Did I...?
In the absence of Syaitan, I fought a jihad against my nafs. To refrain from nafs is harder than physical warfare, as I discovered. The spears of lust, the arrows of sins and the barrage of temptations. My shield of faith; battered yet unworn, I thrive to forget the past. To attain Taqwa, I'm barely there. *sobs*
then after the holy month, rebirth. Another chance for me to continue...this ongoing battle of mine. This year, I attained a victory. Yet it was not easily won. I lost a few battles and hopelessness almost drowned me. I gathered myself. And resumed...
A qn: How do I want to die...?
death may seem a better path. tis not a destination. yet how do I want to die...?
to die in peace or pieces...?
or shall I ask myself a different question...
how do I want to live...?
[Ya Allahu, help your weak and sinful servant in dire need of help in this frenzied world. Ad-dunya majnun. Ya Allahu, please watch over mine family and preserve my progeny.]
- Forgive us, sinners. amen
'quill took his life @ 1:19 pm
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Wednesday, October 26, 2005
.dreams
ooh...I read an article on Lucid Dreamin'...kinda cool...check out wikipedia.org
[wikipedia is so good, I would read an article a day on it..I mean..sure, that's weird but yeah...]
so back to Lucid Dreaming...sounds wrong somehow...but after reading it...imagine bein' able to control your dreams...
personally...
boring: dream of lookin' at myself. Self-reflectin', literally...
syiok: dream abt bein' a vampire...go ard...hehe
next, will be enterin' someone's dream...imagine...I come into your dream and say 'hi'...hehe....IMO, u wud be so shocked, y'll wake up...
...nonsense
so I did malay karangan todae...oh manx, mati...so teruk lyk siao
hrmm...I shud think of what to really write on my blog...
1) on what I think...? [lyk no privacy]
2) prosaic works...? [lyk anione wanna read]
3) talk abt games...? [wat game...?]
4) progress for O lvl...? [...]
hrmm...
- Played Project Gotham. Broke record. =]
'quill took his life @ 2:02 pm
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